The Woman I Was Yesterday

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Chipbutnodale 2016

 

The woman I was yesterday, introduced me to the woman I am today; which makes me very excited about meeting the woman I will become tomorrow. – Quetta Brown

 

I remember the woman I was yesterday. She was angry at her past and all that has happened to her. She was impatient and not as strong and resilient as the woman I was introduced to today. She’s not angry anymore she’s joyful and hopeful of the things to come. She learned patience and what’s for her will one day be claimed. She’s more confident, determined to succeed and let’s nothing stand in her way from doing so. Knowing all this makes me very excited about meeting the woman I will become tomorrow.

– Tiffany Moniq’

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Brick by Brick

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Each day I pray for the walls to come tumbling down but the truth is behind those walls is where I feel safe the most. My trust has been betrayed on so many levels by people who I once trusted, confided in and loved and at times I just don’t know how to let anyone in. The very one’s who claimed to love and protect me never lived up to their word. One of the scariest things in the world is that you never really know what people’s true intentions are  until it’s too late and by then the damage has already been done.  I build a wall, a wall that protects me yet suffocates my ability to love and to be loved so Brick by Brick I build.

Why do we love, love when love seems to hate us?

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I failed many times at love searching for things beyond my reach. Have I been in love before? Yes! I question myself as to where things went wrong and the only answers I could come up with was that I wanted more than what the person could give or simply wanted someone who didn’t want me. I can admit I had no business with the ones I wanted or was with. Instead of me taking each relationship and situations as a lesson I internalized my pain and my insecurities start to flare. I can recall countless  of times where I tried my best to be as beautiful so that the one I wanted would see me. I would change my hair, wear make-up be more girly or however many ways to make someone notice me but none of them worked. I had to learn the hard way that if someone wants you they will make it known loud and clear and when they don’t there is nothing we can do to gain the affection and love that we yearn for from someone who doesn’t want to give it to us. Why do we love, love when love seem to hate us?

In my mind love is not a fairy-tale story. It’s simple, with lots of laughs, kisses, hugs and the long gazing stare when they’re not looking. Love to me is them breaking their necks to come support my dreams, takes trips with me and make my birthday an unforgettable day and celebrate my many levels of success. Love to me is “Good Morning” text messages, liking photos on social media to give me a boost of confidence and out of the blue phone calls just to see if I’m okay. It hurts to see the one that you have developed feelings for and love make someone else happy. It feels like your heart being ripped out of your chest and given to someone else. Why do we love, love when love seem to hate us?

 I’ll take all the tears that I have shed to water the seeds of my gifts and continue to watch them grow.

Life’s RUNWAY

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As we travel along the road to our destiny, life will throw at us many challenges and teach us hard lessons. Life challenges us to become greater than we could ever imagine and the lessons we learn help us to grow and mature into the man and/or woman that we are to be. Not many are able to withstand the impact of life’s challenges and understand the lessons given.Strength comes when we go through some of the most trying times in our lives so that we’ll be able to hold our heads held high and walk Life’s Runway.

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