Many people don’t know or even realize how much strength it takes to keep one’s head held high in the midst of struggle and to survive. Every strong person I know of has been knocked down countless of times, but no matter how many times they’ve been knocked down they always seemed to have enough strength to get back up and try it again. Lately! I’ve been feeling a bit emotional and it takes a lot out of me to be Strong On My Own!
I’m at a place where I need someone to be strong with me, for I can’t always be Strong On My Own…..
I’m strong on my own because I have no choice but to be. I’m not having a pity party or looking for sympathy, I just need to get this out. As I stated before writing is therapy for me and it helps me to move forward by getting my feelings out on paper (in this case Blogging). I find that I give so much even too much of myself that I receive little or nothing in return and that leaves me feeling a bit empty. I thank those who have checked up on me this past weekend and shared their concern and gave some words of wisdom and encouragement. Now listen! Don’t get me wrong, any encouraging words of wisdom, poem, and/or phrase is a good thing for comfort to a person in a time of need but honestly I don’t find it all to be genuine. I feel as though some people just quote scripture because they are programmed to and it sounds like the right thing(s) to say at the moment. Just be human, I’d rather you be human and say nothing or just simply send a smiley face or hug.
I carry a lot knowing I shouldn’t. I don’t intentionally do it just is. I have no choice but to have my own back (My experience has taught me). Yes! I do too much at times but its all for my future and future family if I’m blessed to that level. give because that’s who I am, I do because there was a time when I wanted someone to do for me but NOT!. I’m a lover at heart because I am that is who I was created to be.
I hope none of you misunderstand me. Don’t judge my words just hear my voice. Don’t try and fix me just be there for me. I may cry, I may get angry and impatient but it’s only because I have no choice but to be Strong On My Own…