As of this moment I have no choice but to GRIND harder than ever before. I can’t stop and I won’t stop because I’ve come too far to turn back. All I have is the AUDACITY , AMBITION, and PERSEVERANCE, to keep moving forward and I grow stronger each day because of it. Some of the most successful people I know have gone through some of the most hardest trials in life to get to where they are today. Some have had help and support reaching their goals and there are many who had to pull tooth and nail just to get a toe in the door.
I’m sure I’ve said this many times before but it never gets old to me, 2013 has been one of the best years in my life because I left FEAR alone and grasped onto HOPE and ever since then I have felt as if I was on top of the world. Finally! I’m doing some of the things that I once dreamed of doing many years ago, but I never really had the encouragement or opportunities to do so. So, I then stopped looking for others to pave a way for me and instead paved a way for my own self.
Writing to me has always been a way for me to express myself and exercise my creative side. At a time writing was like therapy for me and still is when I found it hard to express my feelings verbally and/or when others didn’t take the time to hear what I had to say. I feel safe and not judged when I pick up my pen and paper. I feel free to express how I’m feeling be it sad, happy, joyful etc…. and it has helped me on so many levels personally while enduring hardships along the way. There are times when I feel like I’m ALONE and I have no one else to talk to and I don’t want to bother anyone with my issues because we all have them. I noticed over the past year that I receive so much support from strangers and fans of my work than I do my own kindred and it hurts a lot. I find that people become interested ONLY when it may be something in it for them (This could mean good/or bad) and I’m seeing it now.
SUPPORT! SUPPORT! They exclaim but if I asked them what particular article did they like on my blog, they probably couldn’t even tell me……….
So, I take it upon myself to get up and keep moving everyday in spite of what I have or don’t have. If I back out now then all the hard work I put in for 2013 will be for naught, useless and a waste of time. But I refuse to stop because I’m too far into living my dream and I would be a fool to throw all of that away. I do what I do because this is all I have, I do what I do because no one else is going to live my life for me but me. I do what I do because it’s in me and what’s in me is coming out.
I was born to do this…..